Lately, I've been so tired all the time that it's an effort to do anything even think. I may actually be thinking too much. I tend to over-analyze life - situations and conversations and all of that. I also tend to personalize things that aren't personal for example my relationship with my teenager. He is a great kid. I love him very much and he gives me little to no trouble.
He wanted to go live with his father. I felt very hurt by that. I still do. I understand he loves his father and this is nothing against his father. I want them to know each other, but I believe my son belongs with me until he graduates high school. He's in a specialized fine arts program and is doing quite well in school. He is in the band and has a rock band that books shows pretty regularly. He's also in a variety of activities that will look good on a college transcript.
I don't want him to start over as a high school sophomore. I told my son this and he agreed, but I tend to feel he stayed to appease me and not because he wants to live with me. I don't think I'm good enough for my son (or daughter either).
I feel inadequate as a person and as a mother.
If that doesn't make anyone tired, I don't know what will. :(
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